Sunday, May 6, 2012

Blood IS thicker

Mothers Day is special, by nature we are closer to our mothers than anyone else. Really. It is true, you can say you are a Daddy's girl or fathers son but really your mom is the one you expect to protect you and to make sure you know how great you are. Granted there are some people who don't have mothers, or mother figures for that matter but even then, they know something is missing.
I love my Mom, and I am a hundred percent Daddy's girl. My Mom and I have been through a lot and have a hard time relating, what so ever. I have considered never talking to her again, I have considered telling her off. Telling her how much she hurt me, 'cause for some reason she does not see it.
But I wont. I will never tell my mother that she was a bad mother, because even though everyone thinks she is, I don't, and she wasn't. She chose beer over me multiple times, never paid attention to me, subjected me to her horrible long term boyfriend, and many boyfriends after that, denied me a home with her, she put me in bad situations, although at the times these happened I thought for sure she did not love me.
I guess maybe I could be wrong, maybe she is too self-centered to think about me.
But, she raised me and she did the darn best she could. She made so much mistakes and tarnished our relationship forever and as I was searching for her Mothers Day card and had no idea what she'd like, I realized I love someone I don't know because she is my Mom. I love her because she tried because even though she doesn't call or want a relationship with me, I will always want one with her and I will always remember her trying. Because nothing in my life or hers can ruin the kind of love you have for your Mom.

Monday, April 16, 2012

Disappeared and rant

Sorry I have been gone. I have not really needed to write. Just mostly been numb.
I am pretty much depressed. But hey, I keep trucking along and staying positive at every turn.
Even though life keeps shutting doors in my face. Thanks life.
Also, great news! It is pretty much official I wont see Pryce for 8 months this time around! Yay me. -.-
I have been hanging out with friends more, but all they do is remind me how crappy of a place I am in. One of them is engaged, which is funny in itself since she is planning it two years from now! But I love her and I am happy for her. And the other is going to this great college and complains about her boyfriend being gone for two days. Long story short, is why is everybody elses life looking up..? I work 8 times harder than them, I don't mean to tute my own horn here, but I have been through so much I deserve a break. Don't you think?
Anyways, I am so sick of the Navy boards on facebook. I knew I would be -.- They are all just so ridiculous. It is like they gather to tare people apart. I asked about the Ombudsman position, and don't get me wrong here. I know the just of them but I wanted a detailed link to them.. Which I found waiting for the response.
When someone does answer it includes a snooty remark how I don't know what they are. Yes, that is right, me the boyfriend is in a school a million miles away is gonna know that. I think I have the right to ask. Then she has the balls to ask me if she could find mine for me.
Which is seriously like two clicks on facebook, thanks for thinking I am stupid.

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Monday, March 19, 2012

Nicholas Spark Quote

“While I sleep, I dream of you, and when I wake, I long to hold you in my arms. If anything, our time apart has only made me more certain that I want to spend my nights by your side, and my days with your heart.” 

Thursday, March 15, 2012

Link up!!

Sorry I have been neglecting you guys.
And I am sorry that I have Lana Del Rey two times in a row.. I LOVE her. Enjoy.


Sunday, March 4, 2012

Pinkie

I am not usually addicted to any make up reviews like I am with this Navy Wife.
I just like her reviews I thought I'd share. ;]
PinkieCharm or at her blog http://www.reenie.nu/
<3

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Link UP!

Great song, if you are just visiting me please scroll through and find some of my freebies, introduce yourself and follow! I will follow you too as long as you say hi! <3 

Monday, February 27, 2012

Another Freebie :]

I have been pretty busy lately; the good kind of busy though.
First off, school starts in April, I have been working on getting all my classes lined up and my scores transferred from my old school. I am super excited about it too because I have always loved learning and school in general.
Second, I work for Fred Meyer (it is an west coast high quality/untrashy Wal-Mart) and they have a lot of room for growth of the employees, since that is their goal. Anyways, because of my employment at Freddie’s I have been given the opportunity to become a Pharmacy Tech for them. It is exciting news because it pays pretty well and you usually need to go to school to get a job as a Pharm Tech. So I have been working on getting the stuff approved through the state to allow me to work back there. :^] I am super excited. It is not written in stone yet but hopefully it will be soon ;]
Also, the freebie I promised ;] It is a redo, not MY top ten,but definitely some good reasons. ;] Except the taking orders one, that one is not true with Pryce at all. The one I made:  


 This is the original, I DID NOT MAKE THIS ONE. Just wanted to share it too even though there is only NINE(9!!!!) not ten. x]

Friday, February 10, 2012

Little bits of my opinions

I am in one of those moods to share my anti- socialism views and my frustration with my generation for helping ruin the country I love.
This man displayed above is the best damn president we have ever had and probably will have.
We all know Lincoln was republican and he fought for the equal rights of all people? A REAL republican would do this, fight for the rights of gays, lesbians, blacks, hispanics, women and so on. The only reason that gays should not get married is religious and did we forget about separation of church and state, hello? And that is what being a republican is about in my book! So to say the least, despite the large flaws in republicans today I am an open- minded republican.
How is my generation ruining our country? About seventy percent of them are hardcore democrats in my state, at least. And I mean, the democrat could cause four trillion dollars in debt in only three years and they pass it off like it is nothing? How can my generation not see how bad this is for us? We have to pay off that, not them! And I am not saying all democrats are bad, just the closed minded ones.
I hate socialism! I work with three. Have you ever gone into the DMV sat in line for an hour for something that only takes ten minutes to do? The government sucks at everything they run, don't get me wrong I am not a hardcore libertarian, but I do believe we should have as many rights as possible and as little government as possible and paying taxes so we can have things we absolutely need like a good education and decent military. But my god, we spend money on what.. a 13 billion dollar healthcare that we cant pay for???? And worse of all, government run healthcare is horrible in history and history does repeat itself. If a doctor is lazy and screws up on an operation, you think you will be able to sue them or get any compensation..? No way. You think people will be running to become doctors to make barely any money? No. Healthcare will only become less accessible then ever. Look at other countries for the example, you have access to that information everywhere. And do people really think the government wont eventually become a dictatorship having that much control?
I guess ignorance is bliss.
Wise words from abe: 

"America will never be destroyed from the outside. If we falter and lose our freedoms, it will be because we destroyed ourselves."


"Common looking people are the best in the world: that is the reason the Lord makes so many of them."

"Don't interfere with anything in the Constitution. That must be maintained, for it is the only safeguard of our liberties."










Monday, February 6, 2012

Tagged

Soo, for starters Miss Brittany tagged me..

Rules:
1.) Post the rules and the person who tagged you!
2.) Post eleven facts about yourself.
3.) Answer the questions the tagger set for you, and make eleven new questions for those you tag.
4.) Tag however many people you want.
5.) Let your taggers know you tagged them!

Eleven Facts about Kelsey 
1.) I make really sick friendship bracelets, with animals and crazy designs in them!
2.) As a kid I went to 18 different schools and lived in 25 different houses: that I can remember! And NO, I did not come from a military family!
3.) I know every word to every Taylor Swift song, I don't know if I should be proud or ashamed because the words are just so darn amazing.
4.) I am addicted to Victoria Secret, hands down, best store. Ever.
5.) I love chick flicks and any movie or show that is light and funny, I hate drama and "scary" movies.
6.) I had a rough childhood but would not change a thing about it, I accredit it for who I am. If those things did not occur I would have never become so strong and wise.
7.) I am the kind of person that if you were stuck in a jam I'd go out of my way to help you, even if we barely know each other.
8.) I love kids and spent two years of my life working in a daycare/ preschool.
9.) You know you know me when I start making funny noises around you.
10.) I LOVE Buddy Holly and anything related to the 50's.
11.) I really hate cliques.

Questions
1.) What do you love most about life?
Love, that is what I love most, it is amazing.
2.) How do you get through tough times?
I really am not sure, I guess I just shrug it off, I have tough skin.
3.) What is your favorite and LEAST favorite thing about the military?
My favorite thing is probably the sense of family with people who know, not many people understand what it is like, when they do, they almost instantly become one of your close friends because sometimes you need someone to understand and I mean really understand. My least favorite thing is hands down the distance it causes between me and Pryce.
4.) What is it that you do for a living? Do you enjoy it?
I am young, I have a dead beat job as a barista, that I LOVE, but I am working on being an ultrasound tech, and I know I will enjoy that.
5.) If we were to go out for a night on the town, where would we go and why?
This barely applies to me since I don't like big cities, I am a small town girl, that and I do not drink (yet.) If I had to choose somewhere I guess it would be to something unique like a cool dancing class. :]
6.) Do you prefer coffee or tea?
Tea. I work at Peet's Coffee and Tea and I can say both of them hold my interest but coffee is to strong and bitter.
7.) What are your future plans/goals?
My future plans and goals are to hopefully someday become a radiologist and have a family, short term to get married and work on enjoying the simple things in life.
8.) Why do you blog? 
I blog for myself, not for anyone else, not to get followers, but for me.
10.)What is your favorite color and why?
It is not about colors, it is about tones, shades, I cant pick one color because I hate half of the shades of that color. Except blue, it looks good in almost all shades. That being said I like certain shades of purple the best. Because, well, I am girly but not pretty in pink girly, I still like pink.
11.) Do you have anything exciting happening soon? If so, what?
No, not soon. But this summer I may be going to Hawaii.

My Questions for my taggers


1.) What was the happiest day of you life and why?
2.) What is the quality you most admire in your significant other?
3.) What is the defining quality in someone that makes them a good friend, not just a friend?
4.) What inspires you?
5.) If you could choose anywhere to live in the whole world, where would you live and why?

6.) If you were an animal, what animal would you be? 
7.) What is the bravest thing you have ever done?
8.) If you could meet anyone in history or present, who would it be? 

9.) If your life was a fairy tale, which would it be? 
10.) What is your best quality?
11.) Who do you look up to the most? 



Tagged bloggers

Please let me know if you decide to repost my questions, I really want to read your answers THANKS <3
1.) Floating Paper Hearts
2.) Super Momma
3.) Black Little Button
4.) A monkey in the Navy
5.) My New Life as a Mom
6.) Danielle

Thank everyone <3

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Link up

Im feeling pretty lonely today, so I chose this song as me link up!

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Here are some goodies for you guys :]

PLEASE, if you want to request something feel free. :]
This one is a lot larger, please click on it to view full size. <3
Cover for Facebooks new facebook page design, click to see bigger!! :]]] Enjoy
Please keep in mind that these are free to use but I love getting credit and would love more people to get to know me and be able to see my future creations. I simple link to me would be appreciated. :]


Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Surviving on no sleep and the new job

This is something I put together out of boredness really, it is free for you guys to re-post, ect.
So for starters I have decided I am really gonna start working towards a better blog, I have been trying to meet more bloggers and I plan on making content for military families. I especially want to focus this on facebook banners and that kind of special cute things. I would enjoy requests, ect. This above would go into my future content page. I really just want to create things for people to show off their pride in their s/o.
Anyways, I have neglected this for awhile now, and that is explaining my new job. I guess in some way it is controversial? I got a job at a Bikini Coffee shop. Before you judge, would you turn down 100 dollars a day in tips? And if so, to each their own. :] I am comfortable with myself and Pryce is fully supportive so there is no worries. :]
In other news I have to wake up in four hours to brave the snow to get to work! Wish me luck and thank God I work in Coffee!!!

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Thank you

For the loving support. I've been really busy and haven't been able to personally write anyone. Just got a second job.
A question for my amazing followers? Do you also find it hard to sleep because you miss your SO? How do you cope with this? I find myself staying up and having serious insomnia issues, especially when I don't get to talk to Pryce much during the day. We have both been so busy. Im doing better than my last post though. I guess my sadness just built up. <3 Kelsey

Saturday, January 7, 2012

ALL the things I hate right about now

I don't know what else to do but just to write my serious anger away, after I am told I have to not get upset about not seeing Pryce for 6 months (screw that)..
I hate the Navy, first and foremost for making my life 800 times more difficult than this.
I hate my family (excludes a few) for not being able to help me in any way possible so I ALWAYS have to be on my own and hurting and abandoning me so many times that I live with this kind of pain and fear.
I hate the way my boyfriend is about anything with the word commit in it.. it clearly is not you, it is me darling. Stop blaming it on you.
I hate that I am so insecure in myself that I cant just tell him to respect me more, to stand up for me once in awhile, and maybe treat me like I am your proud of me.
I hate that every time Pryce leaves I become more and more numb and bitter.
I hate that I have to hear everyone trying to tell me I am not moral enough, I did not get 500 divorces or sleep with every guy when I was drunk so shut up that I want to work at a bikini  coffee place.
I hate that I am given shit about living where I am cause it is my only option and I am really trying to afford my own room.
I hate my friend for never being there for me because she is so preoccupied with her boyfriend that I set her up with.
I hate everyone for moving at least six hour drive away so I have no one to confide in.
Honestly, mostly I really hate myself right now for being weak enough to attack him, for getting my hopes up on something that will never be, for slowly moving myself away from God, for resenting all the things I do, for not being strong enough to be strong for him, for falling in love.
I feel as though I just need someone to cry and hug but instead I have a stuffed bear that makes me feel more angry and bitter.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

It gets harder everytime

Pryce left on Sunday night and I am really feeling it, it feels like this time it is so much worse. But maybe I had just forgotten what it was like the last time. But no, I am almost positive this is worse.
I think it is because I fully understand every piece of him being gone and how I have to start the countdown for the third time.. I cant believe we have sad goodbye three times already, and this is only the beginning. I am trying my best to stay positive but I feel as though the will power is not there.
Me and my best friend basically just had our fallout, the best fallout ever, no drama. Just realization that we don't speak and have basically moved on. I have no close friends which is a huge bummer and the person I felt closest too before is on a mission trip.
I need to stay positive though.
I might be getting a new job! That is positive. Ill let you know about it if I do. :]