Friday, September 30, 2011

Link Up

Deciding to try to link up this week and post a song. I posted this one because I think every girl wants their man to be this proud of them. (: I will post a blog that does not just consist of music videos tomorrow ;)

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Wanted to Share

I am really impressed with this song, beautiful song with great lyrics. Great for Military loved ones. :]



Monday, September 26, 2011

Workin'

Hey, sorry about the rant on my last post, it is unlike me to be so bitter, it can just be tough. But I am tough too and I know I can make it through anything life throws at me.
Today was a good day! I am starting a new job soon and training has begun! Today was my first day or orientation and tomorrow is my second, at 8:00am tomorrow :| Bummeeerr. I am not a early morning person :]
I will be working at Peets, woohoo, for a grocery store!
Please give me feedback on my new layout, it took me awhile to do and I want to know the good and the bad. But be aware, I still have a few minor adjustments I am working on, but it is almost done.
If I get the layout thing down I might start making layouts on requests for free, to people who need them and don't want to have to spend money on one.

Friday, September 23, 2011

Always on the sidelines

Today was another difficult day for me, I finally told Pryce how I felt about what I want for the future. But it is clear to me that that does not fit into what he has planned. This aggravates me and hurts deeply, so today was a day of unlimited amounts of stress. I am the kind of person that will try to make everyone happy and make everything right. I always try to help people and I put their happiness above mine, so maybe that is why I so readily accept waiting around. He wants to wait two years to get married, and along with this comes tons of issues. Number one, my feelings, it really hurts me to think that he does not want to be with me after two and a half year together, it makes me feel like he is still unsure, when really I don't think that there is much to be unsure about. I have been around for some of his lowest lows and I have watched him change and stayed by his side through anything he needed me too. Number two, that means I am going to spend two years alone, I know I can deal with deployments, I am strong. But knowing that I will be alone and far away from him for two years and only seeing him on holidays kills me. I don't know how he can stand this idea, I really don't. Number three I am trying to go to school, and the program that I want to get in is a two year commitment program and that is important to me, my hope is he will get stationed in Bangor base in Washington State but I don't know. And the fact is that most young, single, submarine sailors get shipped to Japan for up to six months. Meaning, I am going to have to wait to do what I want to do, if he'd marry me sooner than he'd have a better chance at getting stationed in Washington and I already know which school I want to go to up there.
But apparently those things don't come into considerations. Quite honestly, I know I will deal with the pain and suffering. I just don't see why I have to.

Facing Fears and Dealing with Stress

These last few days have been better, in some ways. Mostly because I have found a few ways to entertain myself, including this blog. I have done a few renovations on the design, but I still have a lot more planned, so hooyah for an even better functioning blog! :]
I really appreciate the comments on my blog, it is nice to know that I am not alone, that there are others who are going through the same things as me. I cant wait to get to know new people in the same situation!
My other activities has been scrap booking and taking pictures of my baby cat, Kiwi.
Isn't she just adorable? She will be 5 months on October 7th :]
In other news, I faced a fear today, my fear of needles, and got my ears pierced! I got green earring because that is Pryce's favorite color! I know he is not here to see me with my ears pierced but still! I am so proud of myself, I reacted pretty well and only felt a little nauseated.
Well, still much to work on! Including a signature!

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Why things are worth blogging

I don't think that I am an exceptional blogger or writer, but I do feel as though I have a lot to talk about. And why else blog other then to let my feelings out, if people do or do not listen, it does not really matter. I am not sure if I am going to be blogging as much as I like or not either.
But anyways, this blog is about my life being a Sailors Girlfriend. Sadly along with the happy times there is rough times, my boyfriend just graduated boot camp last Friday and I am ecstatic about being able to text him. But sadly calls are rare still and I have spent most of the last three days pitying myself. Which is unlike me, but my relationship as a Navy girlfriend makes things extra difficult on me, the military pushes people into marrying young, granting those who are married separation and housing pay, along with being more likely to get stationed where you'd like. I have always been a careful person, not impulsive in any way, defiantly not on getting married young, but even I am wanting marriage. It feels like it will be a security blanket, like a promise to me that I am not waiting for no reason, that there will be a less chance I will be away from the person that I love so much.
Me and Pryce have been together for over two years, we were seventeen when we started dating and were best friends for a long while before that. He is currently in "a school" and will be there for a year, all the way on the other side of the country from me. Plane tickets cost 400 dollars round trip months in advance, I have considered moving there, but honestly that would be a very lonely idea since he does not have much time off away from class. That and costs, jobs, and the other obvious reason on moving on an impulse. But hey, I can day dream cant I?
I will have a better, navy inspired layout for my blog later. I have some cool ideas :] So we shall see how that goes.
<3