Sunday, May 6, 2012

Blood IS thicker

Mothers Day is special, by nature we are closer to our mothers than anyone else. Really. It is true, you can say you are a Daddy's girl or fathers son but really your mom is the one you expect to protect you and to make sure you know how great you are. Granted there are some people who don't have mothers, or mother figures for that matter but even then, they know something is missing.
I love my Mom, and I am a hundred percent Daddy's girl. My Mom and I have been through a lot and have a hard time relating, what so ever. I have considered never talking to her again, I have considered telling her off. Telling her how much she hurt me, 'cause for some reason she does not see it.
But I wont. I will never tell my mother that she was a bad mother, because even though everyone thinks she is, I don't, and she wasn't. She chose beer over me multiple times, never paid attention to me, subjected me to her horrible long term boyfriend, and many boyfriends after that, denied me a home with her, she put me in bad situations, although at the times these happened I thought for sure she did not love me.
I guess maybe I could be wrong, maybe she is too self-centered to think about me.
But, she raised me and she did the darn best she could. She made so much mistakes and tarnished our relationship forever and as I was searching for her Mothers Day card and had no idea what she'd like, I realized I love someone I don't know because she is my Mom. I love her because she tried because even though she doesn't call or want a relationship with me, I will always want one with her and I will always remember her trying. Because nothing in my life or hers can ruin the kind of love you have for your Mom.

Monday, April 16, 2012

Disappeared and rant

Sorry I have been gone. I have not really needed to write. Just mostly been numb.
I am pretty much depressed. But hey, I keep trucking along and staying positive at every turn.
Even though life keeps shutting doors in my face. Thanks life.
Also, great news! It is pretty much official I wont see Pryce for 8 months this time around! Yay me. -.-
I have been hanging out with friends more, but all they do is remind me how crappy of a place I am in. One of them is engaged, which is funny in itself since she is planning it two years from now! But I love her and I am happy for her. And the other is going to this great college and complains about her boyfriend being gone for two days. Long story short, is why is everybody elses life looking up..? I work 8 times harder than them, I don't mean to tute my own horn here, but I have been through so much I deserve a break. Don't you think?
Anyways, I am so sick of the Navy boards on facebook. I knew I would be -.- They are all just so ridiculous. It is like they gather to tare people apart. I asked about the Ombudsman position, and don't get me wrong here. I know the just of them but I wanted a detailed link to them.. Which I found waiting for the response.
When someone does answer it includes a snooty remark how I don't know what they are. Yes, that is right, me the boyfriend is in a school a million miles away is gonna know that. I think I have the right to ask. Then she has the balls to ask me if she could find mine for me.
Which is seriously like two clicks on facebook, thanks for thinking I am stupid.

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Monday, March 19, 2012

Nicholas Spark Quote

“While I sleep, I dream of you, and when I wake, I long to hold you in my arms. If anything, our time apart has only made me more certain that I want to spend my nights by your side, and my days with your heart.” 

Thursday, March 15, 2012

Link up!!

Sorry I have been neglecting you guys.
And I am sorry that I have Lana Del Rey two times in a row.. I LOVE her. Enjoy.


Sunday, March 4, 2012

Pinkie

I am not usually addicted to any make up reviews like I am with this Navy Wife.
I just like her reviews I thought I'd share. ;]
PinkieCharm or at her blog http://www.reenie.nu/
<3

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Link UP!

Great song, if you are just visiting me please scroll through and find some of my freebies, introduce yourself and follow! I will follow you too as long as you say hi! <3