It gets harder everytime

Pryce left on Sunday night and I am really feeling it, it feels like this time it is so much worse. But maybe I had just forgotten what it was like the last time. But no, I am almost positive this is worse.
I think it is because I fully understand every piece of him being gone and how I have to start the countdown for the third time.. I cant believe we have sad goodbye three times already, and this is only the beginning. I am trying my best to stay positive but I feel as though the will power is not there.
Me and my best friend basically just had our fallout, the best fallout ever, no drama. Just realization that we don't speak and have basically moved on. I have no close friends which is a huge bummer and the person I felt closest too before is on a mission trip.
I need to stay positive though.
I might be getting a new job! That is positive. Ill let you know about it if I do. :]

Long time no see and surviving goodbyes

Pryce is here! That is really why I have not updated! I have been so busy hanging with Pryce, working and looking for a second job that I just put this on the back burner, but it is okay! Cause I am back ;]
Pryce leaves Sunday and I am sad as heck, but I have decided I am not gonna let it get to me as much as last time.. or at least I am gonna try not too.
These are the reasons why I need to be able to move on from it (and not cry myself to sleep every night):
1.) Pryce is doing something he really loves and it makes him happy, and therefor I need to do my best to be happy and supportive and I cant do that when I am a wreck.
2.) I am strong and need to work hard in life right now anyways, this hopefully includes school too and I am gonna keep busy and need my whole concentrations. Although Pryce would help me get through these things, I need to learn to be independent too.
3.) Life goes by pretty fast and I have this time where I am with my family and when I hopefully marry Pryce someday I wont be able to drive a few blocks to see them.
4.) I need to learn how to be away from him for future deployments.

Fourteen Days and What's your song!

FOURTEEN DAYS until I get to be kissed again, I get to be cuddled with again, until I hear his voice.
<3
Anyways, amazing song, amazing band, link up! :]

Thanksgiving and Christmas rolled in one

Wow, I cant believe Thanksgiving is on Thursday. Meaning in about a month Pryce will be with me, I am so excited!!! And it helps since I have been really lonely lately, and feeling a little weathered down.
I also threw together a Christmas layout for my blog, although it needs some serious TLC as of the moment since I really just designed it in photoshop without seeing the affect. Gah. So I have work to do! But it is almost four in the morning and I have work tomorrow! So I really should just be getting to bed.
I have lost a LOT of blog members which bums me out since that means that I HAVE been really neglecting you guys, that is soo not my intentions. I love reading your blogs! But I find that the blogging world can be so busy and hard to keep up with! But, I did just start this to write. So here I am writing my feelings. hah.
I hope everyone is doing well and has an AMAZING Thanksgiving because I know each and everyone of you deserve it!
Love,

Military Quotes and layouts

"Military relationships are the product of many tears born both in happiness and despair, nights alone wondering where he is, if he's safe. It's looking at pictures, knowing that's the only way I can see his face, calling my voicemail to hear his voice, and not washing his clothes until they've lost his scent.
But it's all worth it in the end, because I know I have one of the purest loves in the world because my Sailor truly knows the meaning of Honor, Courage, and Commitment, not only to the U.S. Navy, but to me. And that makes everything worthwhile.
"I can imagine no more rewarding a career. And any man who may be asked in this century what he did to make his life worthwhile, I think can respond with a good deal of pride and satisfaction: 'I served in the United States Navy.'"

President John F. Kennedy

EXPECT, I new layout soon because I have gotten better and I am surging with ideas. 
I made Mrs. Brittany Dawsons layout.
Here is her blog, check it out and let me know what you think of the layout and what not!! http://mylifeasasailorsprincess.blogspot.com/

Resentment

Hello everyone! I feel like a horrible follower lately! I want to be able to post on all of your guys blog posts, but I really have been only posting on those who post on mine.
Lately, I have been feeling really resentful, that is the only way to describe it. I know it is unfair of me to be angry about his decisions, but it is just that his decisions keep hurting me and it is devastating. I feel like I am constantly asking myself what is wrong with me, why I am not good enough. Like it is my fault he wants to wait forever to get married, I feel almost, rejected. I know, forever is being dramatic but I am just so past the point in my life that I give a shit about being rational, it is stupid, the way people ration.
I am not stopping anything in getting in my way of being happy. 
I don't care about odds, I don't care about being wise, I don't even care about what people will say and I usually really care about what my family thinks. Actually, I am pretty positive they would all understand.
After everything I have gone through, I just want to slow down and enjoy life and work towards my goals and come home to a person I care about.
I don't blame him, I am just so past being young, and I know he is not. I have seen so much and been forced to grow up so fast because the people I trusted walked out on me that I know what I want in life. He, on the other hand, is still figuring it out, like a normal healthy person.
I don't want to party and hang out with my friends all the time, I want to save up for a decent car and get to spend time with the person I want to spend my life with. I know that I am the only person who is fighting for my future and I just want to feel like someone is on my side, that I am not so alone.
I want security.
He brings me security.
I want to feel protected.
But my nature I am the protector, I am at odds with myself.
I guess maybe it is good that I  am learning to get these things on my own, I am a strong person and nothing is going to stop me from succeeding and finding the security and life that I deserve. I know I don't need him to give me that, but it would help so much.

Gentlemen

These were so cute and true I wanted to post some of my favorites and link to the blog, I really think that a girl writes these though. Or a guy who doesn't follow them, I just think there are some things that are hard to not do. Even for us ladies. Anyways link: http://therulesofagentleman.tumblr.com