Barista!

I have been making Coffee! Whoot! I LOVE making coffee, I like almost all of my co-workers. Really the only exception is someone who just hasn't caught on yet, and it is not really that I dislike him, but that he is annoying because I am always picking up his slack.
I LOVE being able to talk to people and be around people, I am probably the best out of all the new barista's (since it was a grand opening, we are all new) with people, I forgot how easily customer service came to me. I worked at Wendy's for a month and they were always threatening me that they'd put me in the Wendy's costume.. no thanks.
Previously, working with kids was so tiring and when I was working, it felt like FOREVER. Working as a barista the time flies by and really I think I am becoming a happier person. I think this is the happiest I have felt since before Pryce left. Not AS happy as I was when he was around but it really is helping me cope with him being so far away.
Although, he is feeling a little down lately.. :\ Which is really sucky because I am not there to make it better. I know it is just a phase that he is going through while getting use to being away from everyone.. But it is really saddening me! I feel it when he is down, I don't feel better until he feels better. I am gonna send him a care package here soon though. I am hoping it will help, I love him so much and I want him to stay strong x) I am sure he will be fine because he is strong. He is just so hard on himself, he expects himself to be perfect, no one is perfect!
I know he reads this! So hopefully he will read this one :]
So, how do you guys deal with your sailors/ soliders/ airman / marine when they are down? I am sure there is moments for all our military men? <3 Thanks everyone, I will try to catch up with everyone! :]

Always on the sidelines

Today was another difficult day for me, I finally told Pryce how I felt about what I want for the future. But it is clear to me that that does not fit into what he has planned. This aggravates me and hurts deeply, so today was a day of unlimited amounts of stress. I am the kind of person that will try to make everyone happy and make everything right. I always try to help people and I put their happiness above mine, so maybe that is why I so readily accept waiting around. He wants to wait two years to get married, and along with this comes tons of issues. Number one, my feelings, it really hurts me to think that he does not want to be with me after two and a half year together, it makes me feel like he is still unsure, when really I don't think that there is much to be unsure about. I have been around for some of his lowest lows and I have watched him change and stayed by his side through anything he needed me too. Number two, that means I am going to spend two years alone, I know I can deal with deployments, I am strong. But knowing that I will be alone and far away from him for two years and only seeing him on holidays kills me. I don't know how he can stand this idea, I really don't. Number three I am trying to go to school, and the program that I want to get in is a two year commitment program and that is important to me, my hope is he will get stationed in Bangor base in Washington State but I don't know. And the fact is that most young, single, submarine sailors get shipped to Japan for up to six months. Meaning, I am going to have to wait to do what I want to do, if he'd marry me sooner than he'd have a better chance at getting stationed in Washington and I already know which school I want to go to up there.
But apparently those things don't come into considerations. Quite honestly, I know I will deal with the pain and suffering. I just don't see why I have to.