ALL the things I hate right about now

I don't know what else to do but just to write my serious anger away, after I am told I have to not get upset about not seeing Pryce for 6 months (screw that)..
I hate the Navy, first and foremost for making my life 800 times more difficult than this.
I hate my family (excludes a few) for not being able to help me in any way possible so I ALWAYS have to be on my own and hurting and abandoning me so many times that I live with this kind of pain and fear.
I hate the way my boyfriend is about anything with the word commit in it.. it clearly is not you, it is me darling. Stop blaming it on you.
I hate that I am so insecure in myself that I cant just tell him to respect me more, to stand up for me once in awhile, and maybe treat me like I am your proud of me.
I hate that every time Pryce leaves I become more and more numb and bitter.
I hate that I have to hear everyone trying to tell me I am not moral enough, I did not get 500 divorces or sleep with every guy when I was drunk so shut up that I want to work at a bikini  coffee place.
I hate that I am given shit about living where I am cause it is my only option and I am really trying to afford my own room.
I hate my friend for never being there for me because she is so preoccupied with her boyfriend that I set her up with.
I hate everyone for moving at least six hour drive away so I have no one to confide in.
Honestly, mostly I really hate myself right now for being weak enough to attack him, for getting my hopes up on something that will never be, for slowly moving myself away from God, for resenting all the things I do, for not being strong enough to be strong for him, for falling in love.
I feel as though I just need someone to cry and hug but instead I have a stuffed bear that makes me feel more angry and bitter.

Workin'

Hey, sorry about the rant on my last post, it is unlike me to be so bitter, it can just be tough. But I am tough too and I know I can make it through anything life throws at me.
Today was a good day! I am starting a new job soon and training has begun! Today was my first day or orientation and tomorrow is my second, at 8:00am tomorrow :| Bummeeerr. I am not a early morning person :]
I will be working at Peets, woohoo, for a grocery store!
Please give me feedback on my new layout, it took me awhile to do and I want to know the good and the bad. But be aware, I still have a few minor adjustments I am working on, but it is almost done.
If I get the layout thing down I might start making layouts on requests for free, to people who need them and don't want to have to spend money on one.